If Only – a poem by Paul Vincent Cannon

At dVerse Lisa is Hosting Poetics with an iinvitation to write about Elizabeth Kubler-Ross’ stages of grief – this is my second poem in response and this one is about anger.

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“The fact is that when you admit that you can’t blame anyone or anything else, you begin to blame yourself.” Kate McGahan

If Only

Why,
why did you leave me in this living death 
with her, she all wrapped up in her needy 
ways and faux sorrow, her critical voices 
cutting my solace, taking my hours and 
swallowing my memories, throwing me
upon myself in a desolation of bones
and mocking my tears, I keep looking for 
you in my words and in the shadows of 
day, trying to pull you back, make everything
right again, especially her; if only I'd been 
there that day.


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44 responses to “If Only – a poem by Paul Vincent Cannon

  1. those if only’s have the mass of a black hole. The epigram is right, when everything else is ruled out, we are ruled in… 😦

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  2. This was a tough one to read. The emotion is very, very raw.

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  3. Again, the voice of much ministering experience is heard here so very competently in its total heart level ability to reach the reader. An impressive transmission of one man’s reality to another ~ one of the highest callings of the poetic art.

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  4. This is poignant, and as Liz G said, hard to read because it feels so saw, anguish on the surface so palpable.

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  5. Another deep, beautiful offering from you ….

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  6. lync56

    Powerful poem

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  7. Hurts to read your words.

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  8. Paul, I don’t believe grief ever really leaves us. It is always in the background of our lives. Beautifully captured! ❤

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  9. wow that sure is a deep loss … frankly I find articulating it helps 🙂
    So your mother was the abuser and father fairer?

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